no, not baby..

fiona apple's "Love Ridden" song had these lines..

"no, not baby anymore
if i need you i'll just use your simple name
only kisses on the cheeks from now on
and in a little while
we'll only have to wave.."

how sad..
i can quite relate to this one.

i have let her go,
gradually.
the feeling had died down,
eventually..
i'm hurting no more.
though i can't say that i'm really happy right now,
i'm just glad that i'm not miserable.
i feel good about myself and i've never felt good for a long time.

yes, time really heals broken hearts.
in my case, it was a matter of not seeing and communicating
with her for almost three months.
with a little bit of hate (haha),
it worked.
but let me clarify it,
i don't hate her, ok?

what really helped was that,
i've found so many reasons to live..
family, friends, my studies, my self..
one lost love is never worth destroying my life..
it was a lesson.
well-learned.

soon i'll be happy.
soon, i'll love again.